My grandmother has been in the hospital for four weeks and I've been helping my mom take care of her for almost two weeks now. The kids each had classroom parties this week, and I was responsible for quite a few things for each party. We didn't even get to make it to Abigail's party, so I had to make sure I took care of the food platters before we left town in a rush. We left so quickly that I forgot to let the childcare coordinator know I wouldn't be there for nursery duty Wednesday night, so I had to give big apologies when I got the phone call from her that night. I've still been working full time while sitting at the hospital. My phone broke yesterday, and it was a pain to get Sprint to fix it. That was really stressing me out to be so disconnected.
I could go on and on with everything that is occupying my time as well as my mind lately.
Yet... A song in the Good Friday church service tonight reminded that this busyness, these responsibilties and even the caretaking of my grandmother is not my life's purpose. I hate that I have to be reminded, but am so thankful that I was reminded.
Here I am to worship. Here I am to bow down. Here I am to say that You're my God.
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I know exactly how you feel. Today Is The Day by Lincoln Brewster really got to me tonight. "I'm putting my fears aside. I'm leaving my doubts behind. I'm giving my hopes and dreams to you Jesus...And I won't worry about tomorrow. I'm trusting in what you say, today is the day". I sat there and realized that I have the same issues over and over again and it all boils down to trust. I say that I trust in the Lord yet I still constantly doubt the plan that I know He has for me. I think somehow I can do it better but my past has proven that I can't do it better and trying to do it better just creates way too much stress and anxiety in my life. I'm done learning this lesson over and over again. I heard Him say to me tonight, "Let me worry about the future. You can trust me". I sincerely hope that next Easter I have a new issue to pray about because I am so tired of this one. TODAY IS THE DAY!
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